Something in my head is resistant to change, yet change is clearly what must happen now. I cannot continue any longer on the road I have been travelling down and every single signpost in front of me is telling me that. There is a brick wall ahead of me, yet I dont want to turn back – I can’t. I cant even see the beginning of this tunnel anymore, only the end.
My dreams are incredibly vivid again, emotionally I’m 14 again, I’m back where I started. Back where all this started; scared and alone.
Yet I’m not alone. And I know I’m not alone but I don’t know how to break down this wall that’s infront of me. Although this time, I must.