Morning gorgeous ❤️ x

How are we all today? I do hope you’re all keeping well, and staying as safe as you can. For those that can’t, my thoughts are with you; always. And I pray times get better soon.

So, after my last post, yesterday, I have been a busy girl. Lots to sort out. Appointments have been made and the necessary agencies contacted. It’s been hard. And will get harder before it gets easier, as I have to deal with the deepest parts of my psyche. I have to go places on my head that I’ve never been to before. The boxes on shelves must be brought down and opened. The contents need throwing away.

But not before they’ve been examined in great detail.

Why were they put there? What was I thinking at the time, when I organised these thoughts and categories the way I have? And which ones really shouldn’t be touched? Because they’re not all rubbish, some are very much necessary for my continued survival. Most, however, are not. And must go.

My doctor has started the ball rolling. And the Advice they have given me, will be heeded. I spoke to the right person today and I’m glad I did. I didn’t come out of the consulting room in tears. I felt like there was hope. Hope for a brighter future, free of these shackles that chain me down and cause me pain.

And there is hope. I’m not the first to have been through what I have been through, and I doubt I’ll be the last. But mine is slightly different, because of the way I think. It’s not that different, though; just unique in my own little way. Just like everyone else.

We’re all similar, yet different. We are all individuals. But we’re all a part of the same team. Our journeys are intrinsically tied together, even though we follow our own paths through life. Therefore, we must all learn to get on with one another and play by the rules that we create. Those rules bind us and keep us moving, as one, in the same overall direction. The direction of progress.

When one of us crawls off in a different direction, unless it is to create a slight shift for us all, they must be eventually brought back into line.

I am that divergent. My experiences are being written down in order to create a slight shift; not for me, for us all. As the new age we are entering, will be a paradigm shift for us all. But I must be brought back into line, and those experiences along with it. Because once they’re written, they can be of benefit to us all…

Keep being you. There’s nothing wrong with that. Because eventually we will all get to be where we want to be.

Much love,

Vikki x